︎ Youyang


Independent Festival Curator
Beijing


By April, I had already been qurantined for 2 months. Nothing was open in the town, no jobs to do, and there was nowhere to go. I saw the spring sweep over the town and now it was almost gone, along with the most beautiful weather. I was sometimes stuck in a sullen mood for no reason.


It was one April evening, and I was facetiming as usual with my boyfriend Peng for a workout. However, seeing the beautiful sunset through the window made me lose all my patience to stay home any longer, I went downstairs. I wanted to stroll to the milk shop for an icecream, at one of the few grocery stores that managed to stay open.

I remember when I passed the street with an open view, there was a stunning colour gradient in the sunset glowing over the horizen in that magical minute. The whole sky was like a glowing copy of a 2016 Pantone color of the year advert, an elegant transition from Rose Quartz to Serenity. I always thought Pantone was sneaky that year, two pinky pretty colors smoothly merged into one were obviously the winner, I was impressed, but lacking much of serious respect. Anyway I wanted Peng to see it too, I pointed my phone towards the sky but realized there's only a compromised version of the scene, it was yellower, and dimmer, like it was pasted with some over satuarated mayonaise and stained the purity of the gentle glow. Cheap, I thought.


I told my boyfriend my phone couldn't capture the true color of that beauty, and he was like: "I'm not surprised, don't you think nowadays the camera is replacing our eyes in more and more occasions, and photos will eventually replace our memory? "


"We're forgetting our feeling of the moment, and wishing taking a picture can save it, but it's fake, you're injecting yourself with a fake memory when browsing through your album in a few months time."


I pondered a while but didn't buy it entirely, "No, I'm trying really hard remembering it with my bare eyes, it's going to stick with me, it's too beautiful to be forgotten!"


But two months later, now I really can't recall that real color anymore, I can only remember the Pantone color of the year 2016, my memory now has been modified by two digital pictures.


I almost remember the exact color I wished to capture, with my eyes widely open, trying to take everything in.



︎ 俞悠洋





到4月的时候我已经在家隔离两个多月了,这段时间什么店都不开门,也没有工作,哪里也去不了。眼看着春天来了又快要走掉,一年之中最美的天气频频光临,我就莫名的有些生气。
四月的某一个傍晚我像往常一样在家跟我的男朋友Peng视频连线健身,但是我看到窗外的夕阳实在是太美,就偷了懒,选择下楼去散步。我想要逛到街边的牛奶店买冰激凌,那是为数不多还在开门营业的本地商铺。
我记得路过开阔的马路时,天边的颜色呈现出了令人震惊的美丽颜色,那是落日余晖的魔法时刻,整个天空就像好几年前我看过的,2016年Pantone的年度色——Rose Quartz和Serenity。我之前觉得Pantone耍了小聪明,选两个颜色的组合显然比只选一个更惊艳,更美,就很不屑,但是记住了那颜色。我一边这么想着一边抬起手机,希望让Peng也能看到这美丽的景色。只不过在手机镜头里的夕阳颜色更加偏黄,跟实际的冷艳光芒比起来像是抹了蛋黄酱,显得廉价、腻味。
我跟男友说这手机根本就捕捉不下来我看到的真实颜色,他就跟我说:你不觉得手机镜头正在代替我们的眼睛,而照片则正在代替我们的记忆吗?很久之后我们会忘记眼睛看到的画面,而留下来的只有照片,在翻看相册的时候这张照片就会被我们错当成真实的记忆了!但实际上这都是假的。
我听了后就很不买帐,我说不会的,我不会忘记这个景色的,我也在同时用眼睛看啊!我在很努力的把这个景象刻印在脑子里啊!
但两个月后的现在我已经回想不起来当时天空真正的样子了,我只能记起那近似的Pantone2016小聪明年度色。这是一段被两张照片修饰过的记忆,差一点,就差一点就能触及到我曾睁大双眼,希望留住的那缕光辉。




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